I tried to hold it so tightly, so closely that i dont realise that everything is flying away.
Im not sure whats on my mind but i feel a sense of lost; a lost of who i am and whats bothering me.
Is it because the change of attitudes my friends are giving me.?
Or they have realise that im just not that good enough to be their friends?
Or maybe because we are of different gender and that they are shy or embarrassed of the comments people give to us. ?
In my opinion, as long as our terms are friends, theres nothing wrong. A friends love is actually more unique than a lovers. So why afraid losing your lover when you got your friend?
I know the anwer :) Its obvious right?
The person you love will be by yourside but will someday leave you but friends will always be there for you. OKay maybe not all.
But i get it, its not easy to be in that situation.
Anyway, its not just about friends.
It about something else. Something that i cannot put my fingers onto it for now.
Maybe its me. I myself being thinking to much to be with friends. Wants to have all the friends.
Ive tried to not think about it, not even for a little while but.. the mystery keeps me wanting to know, wanting to prevent it.
Anyway, its better to stick with people that you know and that will maybe understands you.:)Now i understand what a "click" is all about. But im still afraid of losing my friends. Nevermind, ill survive:)
I just need someone to be there, to listen, to say thats its alright. Im not trying to attract attention or wants attention. Im just a girl with emotions. A smile or a thank you will always be enough for me as an appreciation from someone after helping them. Its hard to say no in helping and ill always say" ok,sure." I know, stop saying it then. The point is, ok maybe its now all about you. I want to here it from you, but how can that be possible.?
Now thats impossible, must i stop helping? I help ppl is because of my own will but the exta help is actually because of you. Indirectly i helped myself alot by being patient and being happy just knowing the impossible will happen. Hahahaha well. Its impossible for me but not for my friend.
Kampate DEAREST FRIENDS,,!
i wont forget you as i cant forget you however i will try not to think of you as each day only you i think about and i wont be unhappy about the fact of imposibility as unhappiness will only bring regrets:)
Alright:)
- I have alot to do, homeworks! hahahaha.
Thats all for today, it felt much better after writing but it will feel wonderful when you would want to listen.
Labels: A feeling, a sensation.
"You leave me SPeeCHLeSS, when you talk to me."
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