I lost my phone - it was stolen.
I lost the sense of satisfaction.
I lost the sense of wanting to help.
I lost the scene that i want.

I lost my phone. Yeah its my fault. I left it somewhere and obviously get steal. However the stupid person did not have to take it as its with code lock and threes my pic. I lost my pics, my contacts, well everything in the phone.
Okay. Already frustrates me. And then comes another wonderful thing.
The next day. Class tee day.

Hahahaha- too gay for them? Too abstract? Too complicated?

Well hello. I designed it. I volunteered to design it. Did anyone gave a helping hand at anytime?
Yeah only " hey erni, can i see the design? Have you done the design? Why so long? Why not put this thing?....." did anyone like say " hey erni, let me help you do some of the things" Anyone? i doubt it. Im not saying that ouh you have to help me and if not you are well ungrateful. No. thats totally wrong. Well i know you guys want to well show concern but hey i got lots of things in my hand. All coming to me and i have no sheild no armour to protect. And im not talking only about school here.

Perhaps im more frustrated because ppl changed the entire design like 5 hours before the deadline to the appointment. Yeah kind of long huh. Minus 2 hours of my dnt class. Minus 2.5 hours of my cca and left what? 30 mins? Well LOL. And did you guys helped to draw?Did anybody helped? Ouh ya right, I volunteered and neveer asked for help. Well if you are a friend, no need to ask. Some friend huh. Anyway. The job is done. YOu guys are happy with the piece of ____ i produced. Yeah. ME.I.MYSELF produce it. Okay my bad.not only me. with the help of maya. Well another thing that makes me annoyed. I draw, i explain, my some first idea and i just keep quiet like a fool ( as i dont want to creat conflict ) and i sent it to print and i dont like it. Not at all. Not any part of it eventhough apart of it was my idea. I know i know " erni, the first design is really nice la but i love this i really love this. " What am i supose to do? Go with the flow. I tried to. But i cant let the frustration go just yet. Not sure why. "Maybe because im angry at myself. Trying to hold everything together and when i lose it i just cant take it. Try being in my shoe man.
I guess no one gives a shit huh. Well i really sound like a bitch right now huh. I just need to right it down. So well now my job is done and im not giving any more shits either. If you guys are going to hate me for this well so be it. You guys are just some random ppl in the world which i got to know.:)

Thank you maya,isa,bandhu,jimmy and MR JOHHNY WEE. yeah the last person that i thought will help me. I guess i was totally wrong. Sorry mr wee. Now i see the real world. I think i owe you 2 hours.:P Peace. Im sorry id i had troubled you guys. Seriously im sorry. I cant promise that it wont happen again. :P but it will only happen once in a blue moon:) hehehehe
So for now be hapy peeps and well forgive me if im acting like a byaatch which i am not one of them . I wrote this following my frustration with the situation not with anyone. Well maybe some ppl but just ppl.

See ya.

nad: Hais awk. Buat baik pon salah. Lebih baik takya buat kan. Seriously awk. Kite hari tu tak le tahan sebak. Lagi biler hp kiter hilang. Kene meet deadline and its like a few hours deadline. Homework lagi. Nasib baik ader cikgu giler tu awk. Slalunye kalau org nangis dier make fun but hari tu, dier just tanye what happen and talk to kite for about 20 mins. Kalau la K ader awk .Kalau la kiter org mcm dulu, boleh kiter msg atau kol dier untk share masalah. Hais. Kite mcm raser kiter kehilangan byk bende. Even kat rumah kiter jarang bbual ngan sesiaper. Semua do thier own stuffs. Aper kite nak buat awk. ? :) OUh spend our time wisely:)